Making a New “Friend”

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Lately I have spent a lot of time trying to “imagine” what the future will be. It has always been – and I suspect will continue to be – a fruitless and worthless pursuit. Much as I try to NOT do it, I seem to be more and more consumed with “knowing” what is going to happen – with work, my father’s health, the engine light on my car – all of it. It is uber-frustrating.

I saw my therapist today. She encouraged me to spend some time with my new “friend,” Helplessness. I won’t go into it in depth here, but when I can finally turn Helplessness from my enemy into my friend, well, Helplessness will still be here but my life will become more settled. I will be able to better cope with life’s events – I want to say obstacles, challenges, crappy moments – but that is all my own emotional shadowing I apply to circumstances. Sure, sometimes events happen that suck, and I feel powerless to change them. But that is all me – perhaps I am not MEANT to change them, but rather ride them out, accept them, accept that I am “not happy” with them and then continue living. Maybe we aren’t meant to “know” everything. I am coming to understand that we do, however, have to accept whatever The Universe throws at us…

I am still not eager to forge this new friendship but feel I must try. So… Hello, Helplessness. Should we grab a coffee and get to know one another better?

2 coffees

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