Monday Memes 25

Love. Funny how love “changes course” and gets redefined as relationships flourish – then sometimes flounder. I am lucky – I kissed a LOT of frogs before I found my Prince (he found me, actually!) but it was worth it. I love you, MSW.

In the beginning, it’s like:

love fearlessly

However, sometimes we “make a mistake,” or the dreaded “It’s-not-you-it’s-me” moment arrives and then this happens:

lovers to nothing

However, if stars align (as mine have), you find your true love – “The One” – and life is more like this:

define loveI wish each of you reading this the good fortune I have found…



So today was a challenging day, overall – my father’s health seems to now be deteriorating rapidly, work was a wee bit, um, discombobulated and even just getting to work sucked (45 minutes this morning for what is normally a nine minute commute). I mean, today of all days, I was suffering from a SEVERE case of ~

WTFBut, I managed to make it thru the day and get home to my beloved spouse, Martin (he makes every day better). So, after chowing down on a delicious meal Martin prepared, we were just relaxing and having coffee when the phone rang. It was a call from my former business partner – it was good to hear his voice and catch up a bit. It was also great to hear the news he had called to share; I won’t tell you all the details other than it is SUPER good news that came at a SUPER good time regarding the ongoing shutdown of the business we formerly shared. It was GREAT news; no, I mean REALLY great news, and I was like (again but in a different way) ~

seriously-wtfSeems that I received another “bitch slap” from The Universe tonight. I always think that, when I get my head in an odd/bad place, or when I stop “hoping and believing,” The Universe reaches down and gives me a bitch slap to set me straight again. I never see them coming (the bitch slaps) but, honestly, I always deserve them. THANK YOU, Universe, for caring enough about me to not only take care of me and my beloved but also taking a hot second to remind me of that fact. I’ll “try and do better,” promise…


Monday Memes 20 (I’m Back, Bitches)

For the past few weeks/months, I have felt kinda’ lost. My spirit has been beaten down and I was all but ready to give up on a career that I really love. Mercifully, that mood or darkness or whatever you want to call it has passed and/or lifted. I feel renewed and excited about working again. A big THANK YOU to ALL my friends, peers and colleagues for your unwavering support and massive  “rah-rah-ing” of late, and an especially HUGE thanks to my beloved MSW, without whom I’m not sure I would have “resurfaced.” (He rocks!) Anyway…

In the tradition of “Monday Memes” – I am nothing if not a traditionalist – I offer up these three graphic gems that helped inspire me to keep going and reminded me that I always need to follow my heart. Enjoy!

show your dreams

do what you love


I Must Have Been Insane

My beloved Martin is such a great support to me – in every single way. For example, as I transition my design practice from its former (now closed) storefront to our apartment (working from home REALLY cuts down on overhead expenses, LOL!), he is working hard to convert our guest bedroom/computer room into a fully-realized office/work space for me/us. Part of MY job in this transition is “clearing out” things that have come to rest in that room – an old tube TV, lots of no-longer-needed immigration reform materials, my non-functional Dell desktop computer (see previous posts) and my Beanie collection, to name a few.

Yes, Beanies – as in Beanie Babies… I know. Don’t judge.

beaniesWhile the image above is not one of my own personal Beanie hoard, I do have quite a few of the styles pictured. I started cataloging them tonight and stopped at fifty; all told, I bet I have like 110 or more. I know. What was I thinking?

It was so easy getting caught up in the Beanie baby madness twenty years ago – yup, a LOT of my Beanies are twenty years old. They took American consumers by storm – driving people (like me) to haunt Hallmark stores across the nation, waiting for the next delivery of USA Bear, or Floppity the Rabbit or Lucky the Lady Bug. If you were lucky, you found a “rarity” – for example, I myself own an Echo (killer whale) with a “Waves” tush tag. Priceless, right?

In the moment, it felt like hitting the lottery.

I spent – on average – about $5/each for all my Beanies. They are the stuff of collector’s dreams – none have ever been played with, all came home and immediately went into Ziplock bags, quite a few have tag protectors, they have always been stored in a smoke-free house…

They.Are.Perfect. And they are all but worthless…

A quick internet search reveals a few Beanie brokers willing to pay $0.40/each – top dollar! – for Beanie collections/lots of over fifty toys. If I have 99+ beanies, they will send a “free” UPS call tag to pick up my collection. So – that is roughly $550.00 “invested” for almost twenty years to yield – maybe – $44.00. Sigh…

I can honestly admit – I am a FAR better interior designer than investment counselor. But, in the potential office “purge,” the Beanies have to go to make room for files. Maybe I will make $40.00 or maybe I will donate them to a charity that serves underprivileged or homeless kids. One thing I DO know for sure:

Next time, I will just buy some shares of RPM common stock instead.  😀

Wash Over Me

After an especially annoying day yesterday, today has been a blessing. I have spent the entire day with my beloved MSW – we did everything and nothing, all day long. It was great…

I also put into practice a relaxation and de-stressing technique I use. Whether you’d name it “Going to your happy place” or “Water off a duck’s back,” it is essentially this: planting both one’s feet firmly, bracing for whatever “it” is that troubles you then letting it wash over you and finally watching it leave. My imagery always involves water; water has a calming, cleansing significance for me. I always imagine “it” rolling over me and when it has passed, the scene is serene, calm and beautiful. My “happy place” always involves a body of water. I like all the images below – they make me feel calm, at peace, thankful and centered.

I hope they have the same effect on you, too.


Calm Waters

Still water

Wednesday Roller Coaster

I was “off” work today and have had a roller coaster of a day… The good part of it?

I got to spend the bulk of the day with the two men I love most – my father (Pop-pop) and my husband (MSW). MSW and I went down to visit Pop-pop today, tour his new 2BR/2bath condo – which is pretty sweet, BTW – and have lunch at Shelby’s own Chinese buffet. Delicious. We also took Pop-pop some paczki’s (ridiculously-delicious filled donuts eaten to observe “Fat Thursday” – more on that tomorrow). MSW and I had a great time, my father enjoyed our visit and, all-in-all, that part of my day was fantastic. Now, the other part…

For anyone considering owning his/her own business, let me just share with you that MANY – and I mean MANY – days, you will feel like this:

Punch the wallI feel like that today. Without going into a ton of details, I will just share that I have been shepherding a client order for WEEKS, with weekly status update emails, and weekly assurances from the manufacturer that all is “right on target” and the product will ship on schedule. It was supposed to ship this Friday (the day after tomorrow).

Today I got an email – not even a phone call! – letting me know the manufacturer was sorry but it would have to be “pushed back” a week. Ugh. I wanted to throw my phone down and stomp on it (I was checking my email with my phone).

Some free advice – NEVER check your work email on your days off…

It will all be resolved. No one is dying. But it IS annoying, frustrating and supremely aggravating when you have done EVERY SINGLE THING CORRECTLY and you still get screwed. Just one of the many joys of small business ownership…

For now, I’m gonna’ go watch some mindless TV with my Beloved and eat a(nother!) paczki. I’ll fret more about this all tomorrow. It is comforting to know that yeast-y fried dough, chocolate cream filling and copious powdered sugar always make everything better. Sorry, Weight Watchers – I’ll “track” tomorrow.

S.A.D. or G.A.D.?

Odd as it sounds, especially given the fantastic holiday season I just enjoyed, I think that there is something wrong with me. It might be time to add a new “disorder” to my list of maladies. Please, do not think I am making light of either of these conditions; I am seriously wondering if I have one, or both…

I definitely think I am suffering from a mild to severe bout of S. A. D., or Seasonal Affective Disorder. From Wikipedia:

Symptoms of SAD may consist of difficulty waking up in the morning, morning sickness, tendency to oversleep and over eat, especially a craving for carbohydrates, which leads to weight gain. Other symptoms include a lack of energy, difficulty concentrating on or completing tasks, withdrawal from friends, family, and social activities, and decreased sex drive.  All of this leads to depression, pessimistic feelings of hopelessness, and lack of pleasure which characterize a person suffering from this disorder.

S.A.D. guyClick image above for more information on Seasonal Affective Disorder

I have definitely been experiencing the “Winter Blues” lately, and have several of the symptoms listed. In addition, I have also been feeling anxious and irritable lately. Could it be that I have G. A. D., or General Anxiety Disorder? According to The National Institute of Mental Health,

“All of us worry about things like health, money, or family problems. But people with generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) are extremely worried about these and many other things, even when there is little or no reason to worry about them. They are very anxious about just getting through the day. They think things will always go badly. At times, worrying keeps people with GAD from doing everyday tasks.”

Anxiety DisorderClick image above for more information on General Anxiety Disorder

Good God – Is it possible I have BOTH? Like a super disorder called G.S.A.D? (gee, sad).

Again, I am not making light of people that suffer from these disorders, and I do believe I may have a mild case of both. Or, it could be that I am just a little run-down after the holidays, normally concerned about work/life and just love carbs because they taste good. I’m not sure. But I do know that I could use a little more sunshine – both actual and figurative – in my life at the moment. And  a little LOT less stress. Please.

I thank The Universe every day for ALL the sunshine in my life and a HUGE source of light and love is my beloved MSW. He makes my day brighter just by being. I am thankful for him every day and hope The Universe sends him a little back-up soon. He could use it…